I've been asking that a lot lately...and it's time I took a minute out for myself to answer that- for MY SANITY!!! Haha.
Why am I looked down on because I'm honest, real, and straight forward? Because I 'choose to put my life on blast'- that makes me a bad person? Wouldn't it be worse if I just acted like everything was peachy-keen in front of everyone else, and lived in my own demise at home? Wouldn't it be worse if I were fake? For some reason, fake is the only thing accepted in this shit-hole we call existance. Yeah, I might be up in your face with my biz- but if you don't like it- go the fuck away! Pretty sure the only way you can get handfuls of me is A) through my blog, and B) through facebook. Well there's an easy solution for that... um- block me. Refrain from typing MY name into YOUR computer, and you won't ever hear from me again. Simple!
Why me? Why does it seem that everytime I get further in life- something kicks me down a notch? I don't want to be kicked down a notch! Let me do my thing, and let me do it well- I know I can...but why won't this life let me? I am all about self responsibility, I am all about the SELF. I understand the power that each individual has, and that I am respnosible for where I am and where I go. HOWEVER! I can not tell the future (as much as I'd like to)- and I am not sure why the curveballs continue to come my way. Ugh, you know what? This whole paragraph is pointless, because I know...as much as I want to blame it on fate, 'god', or some other bullshit made up force- that it IS my fault. That I put myself here in this situation, and only I can get myself out of it. Reality check, B. Pull your shit together, do what you gotta do or shut the fuck up and stop bitching!!! (Yes, that is an example of me- referring to myself in the third person. Lmao!) Either way, shit's gotta change. Not that before things were great- I was a severe alcoholic, and was out of fuckin control! However, I know I can be a better me...and I guess the journey continues on finding, realizing, and appreciating the fact that I understand what needs to be done. Blah blah blah, I'm blabbering.
I'm over this why shit <3
Why am I looked down on because I'm honest, real, and straight forward? Because I 'choose to put my life on blast'- that makes me a bad person? Wouldn't it be worse if I just acted like everything was peachy-keen in front of everyone else, and lived in my own demise at home? Wouldn't it be worse if I were fake? For some reason, fake is the only thing accepted in this shit-hole we call existance. Yeah, I might be up in your face with my biz- but if you don't like it- go the fuck away! Pretty sure the only way you can get handfuls of me is A) through my blog, and B) through facebook. Well there's an easy solution for that... um- block me. Refrain from typing MY name into YOUR computer, and you won't ever hear from me again. Simple!
Why me? Why does it seem that everytime I get further in life- something kicks me down a notch? I don't want to be kicked down a notch! Let me do my thing, and let me do it well- I know I can...but why won't this life let me? I am all about self responsibility, I am all about the SELF. I understand the power that each individual has, and that I am respnosible for where I am and where I go. HOWEVER! I can not tell the future (as much as I'd like to)- and I am not sure why the curveballs continue to come my way. Ugh, you know what? This whole paragraph is pointless, because I know...as much as I want to blame it on fate, 'god', or some other bullshit made up force- that it IS my fault. That I put myself here in this situation, and only I can get myself out of it. Reality check, B. Pull your shit together, do what you gotta do or shut the fuck up and stop bitching!!! (Yes, that is an example of me- referring to myself in the third person. Lmao!) Either way, shit's gotta change. Not that before things were great- I was a severe alcoholic, and was out of fuckin control! However, I know I can be a better me...and I guess the journey continues on finding, realizing, and appreciating the fact that I understand what needs to be done. Blah blah blah, I'm blabbering.
I'm over this why shit <3
You have a great attitude a great support system an awesome sister and alot of fans.No self inflicted wounds, (stop beating yourself up) people can be assholes that's a given in life just do your best.Youre a smart out going woman there's nothing to be ashamed about. Personally youre my favorite and it pisses me off to no end when douche bags put you down,i say fuck them and the horse they road in on.love your blog!
ReplyDeleteThank you Frank!!!
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